When You Feel Like You Are Losing Your Mind

Hey everybody!  Fall is in full swing – and several started-but-unfinished posts have been languishing in my draft folder for weeks.  I hit a wall – with life in general, really – and have been in sheer survival mode.  Many days (and nights) I have been convinced that I am losing my mind!

I started a 2nd part time job and it is more physically demanding and less mentally demanding than my other part-time job.  Hours were a bit long in the beginning, but they have eased up and I am settling in.  Just in time for the Holidays.  (I am part-time bookkeeper for a non-profit agency and also now a cashier at a local drugstore).  Getting my schedule together has been a challenge – let alone finishing posts and making more printables.

So the blog went to the back burner while my mind spun ideas about posts to write during Fall.  

And I know that I am NOT the only one who *hated* all of the robocalls and commercials for voting.  SO glad that is over.  Now maybe we can figure out how to work together like Americans.

THEN Daylight Savings came.

Whoever decided that the Time Change was necessary (and yes, I know all about it) and we should continue to adhere to it despite the shift to industrialization in our country did not have mothers in mind.  Or working women.  In their late 40s.  With kids who stress over minor changes…

We are STILL adjusting to the darkness.  My kids are begging to go to bed at 6:30.  But then getting up at 5:00 a.m.!!!   It is NOT good!!!  All 3 are having sensory reactions to the changing season – more significantly than in previous years – and sometimes, we have all been in bed by 8 pm just so everybody could HANDLE things.

I am thankful that I can pray to a God who hears and sees.

For real.  I pray quietly, I pray out loud, and I pray by journaling.  If I did not have prayer, I would not survive this crazy time. 

I have said more than once – I feel like I can’t handle my life right now.  Lots of juggling balls, tracking schedules, dealing with finances.  It has been crazy messy more often than not.

I am also thankful for essential oils.

More often than not, I can be found diffusing or applying essential oils while mumbling out a prayer at the same time.  I have been using “stress” and “sleep” oils more often than not of late.  The stress makes it hard for me to sleep through the night and not sleeping makes the stress harder to roll with.  I am taking the vitamins and drinking the water and trying to find at least ONE thing to be thankful for every day, but sometimes the waves feel stronger and I lose my breath.

I am writing all this in the spirit of encouragement really.  When you feel like you’re losing your mind, I can highly recommend 2 strategies :

  • PRAYER
  • ESSENTIAL OILS

Yes there are other things like counseling, journaling, mindfulness, checkups, naps, etc., that can be beneficial. 

But these two things have made all the difference between FEELING like I’m losing my mind and actually LOSING my mind!

I want to share some essential oil recipes soon along with some favorite Fall treat recipes!  That’s what I have brewing in my blogging pot, and am praying I can get them out here for you to enjoy!!!

Change of Scenery

So, some things have been going on here.  And NOT going on here.  I decided to move most of my blog content over to my new blog at FindingGraceandGlory.com and wasn’t sure what I was going to do here – if anything at all.   (If you haven’t been there, head on over and subscribe so you can stay caught up with my crazy life!)

I have kept a few old posts here.  I plan to do a few posts in the next month.  I have some light bulbs burning in my head about this site, but am getting the other site up and running, so we will see what happens here.  I have some creative ideas that I am processing and may showcase some things here in the future.

Until then, may your cup be full and every sip be sweet!

Debbie

The One Where She Decided to Keep Writing

It has been some time since I really blogged here.  I have done sporadic updates, but frankly, my heart would love to be here writing 5 3 times a week.  Between 3 fast-growing kids, changes in jobs and homes over the past few years, even changes in technology, I have been on a journey.  Sometimes, I haven’t even been writing in my journals.  Some days the only notes I wrote were for school.  Some days I spent playing phone games and browsing Pinterest.  Some days I was just too tired to do or think or say one. more. thing.

I have debated giving up my blog entirely.  It’s sitting here – I’m paying for hosting – sometimes my blog is the only interaction I have with long-distance friends or family.  But here it sits, like that stack of papers I need to sign & review or toss in the burn barrel.

Frankly, my home life has been a wreck.  Now, when I say that – I don’t mean my family is falling apart.  I mean we have encountered so many changes, challenges, and made choices that have brought a lot of mental chaos to my life, which can be quite easily seen in my home.  I have not handled things well. There have been health issues and diagnoses in our family that have rocked my world.  There have been school issues and work changes that have left me exhausted.  As I am aging, I find myself feeling more aches & pains, tolerating noise & chaos less well, and losing a little bit of flexibility.

Then the whole election debacle happened.  I don’t think I’m the only person to have been left stunned by the results of the election or the aftermath.  Can I say that this has left me profoundly, deeply saddened for our world?  Probably not for reasons one might think, because I tend to lean to the conservative side in most areas.   God has really been speaking to my heart about a lot of things, a lot of issues and I feel like my blog is my place to share what He has been speaking to me…

HOPE was my word for 2016.  And I found myself chasing after HOPE more days than not…  More hours than not…

But for 2017, I felt like God gave me 2 words.

ENOUGH.

This word is about fully trusting God to be enough for me.  In every area.  He is calling me to rely on Him for my self-worth, my security, my finances, and more.  It is personal, a word just for me – something to process inwardly.

NOURISH.

He surprised me with this word.  But for me, it means I need to nourish others.  My relationships with my husband, with my children, with my extended family members.  But also friends, church family, and my community.  It has given me a lot of food for thought.  I have operated a lot in “crisis mode” where relationships are concerned – making them less important than other things, and this is the year I am intent on setting that right.

I have come to realize how my priorities have been set more by what has come at me – flying in my face – than by intention or thought or even prayer.  Family health issues, my health and my personal struggle with anxiety have all coagulated together to contribute to this.  But God has been granting me clarity (and Serenity!) and is helping me process some issues so I can let go of the needless and hang on to the needful.

It’s kinda like the instructions when you get on an airplane and they talk about how in the event of an emergency, oxygen masks may fall.  If you are traveling with small children or someone needing assistance, the advice is to put on your own oxygen mask first, so that you can better help those traveling with you.

Part of my process this year is putting on my oxygen mask. I find that I am okay with grabbing my oxygen mask first, which is one thing that this blog provides to me – oxygen!  So I decided to Keep Writing, and we will just see where it leads.

I am going to change the focus a tad because frankly, I love to write about EV. ERY. THING…  But I am going to narrow my focus and keep things going in a more cohesive direction, and hopefully you will see that soon.  I will be posting a reader survey soon and hope that – even if you don’t normally comment – you will find a way to share your perspective with me so I can bring some pleasure to your reading time.

Thanks for reading

Leave a comment today and tell me if you have a “word” for 2017 or what you hope to see happen this year in your own life.

Sometimes, It’s Hard to Move

I have been blogging at another address for about 6 1/2 years.  I began blogging about my oldest daughter.  I was older when I got married and when we started our family.  It was a kind of big deal for me and for many of my friends & family members who wanted pictures and stories.  Emailing everybody got tiresome as I would pretty much write the same thing.

Then I discovered blogging and it was ON like Donkey Kong, baby!

Although I have been blogging for many years, I have taken several blogging breaks for a variety of reasons.  Writing is what drives me now, but family life – and two more children – have shifted my priorities.

Recently, our family of 5 + 1 kitten moved from a house I lived in for almost 10 years to a new-to-us house.  The new place required a LOT of work before AND AFTER we moved in.  It’s been a work in progress, even now that we have been here for almost a month.  We had plumbing issues – which were certainly primary concerns – but also adjustment issues to schedules and new bedrooms and “where are my toys, Mom?”

I’m a shove-everything-against-the-wall-and-leave-a-wide-open-floor kind of person and that is how our first few weeks have been lived.  But now we have to finish unpacking boxes – and get the empty boxes out of the house.  We have to continue to cull our many collections and get rid of the excess – even in this newer, bigger place!

I find that moving my blog is kinda the same way.  I am having a hard time letting go of the old.  Of knowing when is JUST the right time.  Of how to transition from the kind of mommy blogger I used to be, to the kind of blogger I have become.  Rather than forcing it, I am going to adjust and slowly unpack what God is doing in my life and in my writing here, as I continue to sort and move the treasured memories and writings from my old blog.

Go ahead and get subscribed here.  I will be writing more and more here, and less and less at the old place, but not too much at either one.  You can subscribe to both if you’d like, so you can follow the move – or just get signed up here so you can get any new posts in your email or RSS reader!

Polish Pierogi and Perfect Purses

I’m taking a quick break from EWomen stuff today. I wrote what I needed about my 2 favorite speakers – but there is more about the others that I’ll try to post tomorrow.

I don’t know about you but Fall makes me want to spend more time in the kitchen. I love baking. I love apples and pumpkin and squash. It’s a perfect time of year to turn the oven on and start producing good things that make the house smell good and taste so scrumptious.
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You Say It’s Your Birthday?

Well, It’s MY Birthday, too!

And I’m the Big 4-0!!!

It’s a big birthday – one to remember – and one I happened NOT to dread.

My Keurig is brewing my first cup of coffee – my babes are still asleep, and I’m typing in the dark this morning. I can’t remember the last morning I had like this – the girls have been off kilter sleeping since the time change. In October!

I have no big plans. Laundry needs done. And dishes.
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Wonderfull Wednesday!

Last night we hosted a Christmas Tea for the ladies of our church. It was really a Christmas Concert Tea – and it was lovely. Besides the fact that I love Tea – I. Love. Christmas!

Always have! My birthday is next week, and I loved the fact that I was always able to celebrate my birthday amidst the lights and festivity of the Christmas season.

sigh…

Do you love Christmas? Do you love the shopping and gift giving? The baking and family get togethers? The snow and lights and the frost on the windowpanes?
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